Hello everyone,
Well, I just listened to the Loving-Kindness audio exercise and I must say, I need a lot of work in the concentration department. I think it's a good idea and may be beneficial to others, but not to me, not yet anyway. I have never really given any type of meditation a try, but that is my goal. It is hard for me to wish love and kindness to rude people who I don't care for very much, but I am trying to improve in that area. I have kept my feelings guarded and at a minimum for a very long time now, I think I may have some of the traits of a Type D personality that we are learning about in my Stress class. It's kind of scary when you learn more about yourself and/or get confirmation of it, but also a good thing because I am hopefully going to learn ways to change for the better. I want to feel passionate about things (and people) again, but I think I have a ways to go yet. That's where the mental workout comes into play. Mental workout is like any other type of workout, it takes practice and determination to get any results. It is something you have to practice on a regular basis in order to achieve healthy outcomes. Research has proven that mental workouts are beneficial to our health and well-being. I think if I incorporate mental workouts into my everyday life, then in time, it will be easier to perform these exercises and easier to open up my heart again. I hope this doesn't make me sound completely heartless, I do care about people and I don't wish suffering for anyone, it's just not easy for me to express how I feel. I guess I feel I have to display a tough exterior so I don't seem vulnerable. I don't know, maybe I'm crazy (ha ha). On that note, I hope all of the mothers out there are having a wonderful Mother's Day!! :)
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Hi Shannon! I can see your blog however I completely understand your frustration. I am having difficulty finding my blogs and some peers have said in seminar that they read my blog but could not comment on it :-( I've been commenting and then having to type some weird cryptic letters before it states that my comment has been published. I never go back to check. So I hope I am doing it correctly.
Yes, I had a little trouble doing this week's exercise also. I have a lot on my mind and found it difficult to concentrate. Also I have some work to do in the loving myself area. When it came to thinking of others who were struggling I came up with a few people however I than drifted to people who have hurt me and that ended up nowhere. You said some great stuff about during the times I just expressed one really has to train their mind. The more we do it the easier it will become and we will be better for it. As far as you needing that hard exterior maybe it is time to let that wall down some. After all you deserve to be happy and in order to become happier we have to let ourselves be vulnerable and feel. Thanks for the Mothers Day Wishes. Peace&Blessing
T.
I don't know that not being able to express ones self is so uncommon. It is a learned behavior to or not to open up. I truly believe that we have to open up for other to want to open up to us. I see that you have learned this week from doing the exercise where some areas you need to work on. Funny how we see our not being able to do something as not being able to do it or get it. As we step back and maybe even get another's view like here we learn that it did work in ways and it was a success. So I see your success and hope you are able to own these issues that you notice and make the next level of success. Way to go!!
Hello Shannon,
With meditation it is definitely an exercise you must keep working on. When I first started I needed very detailed and very short meditations. I started with one called an apple meditation. This is where I would sit comfortable and try to imagine an apple. Think about the color, texture, temperature, scent, and the feeling when you bite into it. This was easy to do as I enjoy apples and eat enough the image was very clear. I could picture it and use all my senses in my mind. As I improved I would change to different visualization. Now I can meditate to any guided meditation. I still not do well when I am asked to sit and clear my mind. I have too many thoughts to have a completely clear mind.
Well, thank you for your post! -Audrey
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